
The story is told that for a time a young Ben Franklin had the diligence to daily score his own performance on a number of character issues. On a scale of 1-10, how respectful had he been that day? How honest had he been? He noticed a peculiar pattern. Those days where he scored well on most of the traits, he found he scored poorly on humility. And vice, so to speak, versa.
I doubt any of us have the humility or insight to give a terribly accurate assessment of our character. The heart, after all, is deceitful. A reality we all struggle with until we cross the veil. Which ought not lead us into a hopeless sense of skepticism. Instead it ought to lead us to humbly seek out a humble rubric in self-assessment. One, you’ll not be surprised to learn, that is grounded in humility.
Consider the case of the Pharisee and the tax collector. The Pharisee had the spiritual awareness to begin his prayer thanking His Maker. He was foolish, but not so foolish to think himself a self-made man. “I thank You Lord that I am not like other men,” he began. What followed was a list of spiritual accomplishments. His tithing was exemplary. His passion for fasting was commendable. On certain sins of commission, he was innocent. By all these standards he far exceeded the tax collector.
The tax collector, however, scored higher on the three most important questions, his understanding of God, of himself, and the gap in between. He begins by acknowledging God’s transcendence- Lord. Next he expresses his dependence on God’s grace, repenting– be merciful to me. Finally, he acknowledges what he is- a sinner.
Happily we are not left with mere self-assessments of either man. For the One who is the Truth tells us of the tax collector, that he went home justified. Not more respectable. Nor superior. Not wiser. Nor well trained. He went home justified. Why? Because by God’s mercy he knew God’s mercy was his only hope. It’s not that pride keeps us from heaven while humility opens the gates of pearl. Rather, it is His mercy that opens the way. Humility, which is itself a gift, rests in that mercy.
Which means the correct answer to “How am I doing?” is simple- Not well enough. The better question, however, is “What has He done?” The answer is more than I could ever hope or imagine. He has covered my sin by His death on the cross, given me the righteousness that marked every moment of His life. He is even now preparing the home for me where I will go, having already been justified.
There is an important place for parsing sound doctrine. Sola fide is of the utmost importance. Penal, substitutionary atonement an absolute necessity. These, however, are, albeit sound and essential, doctrines. The tax collector couldn’t explain these doctrines to save his eternal life. What he did, by His grace, was live them out in his earnest cry, “Lord, be merciful to me, a sinner.”








